"ENCOURAGING THE ONE'S THAT CAN'T FIND THEIR VOICE.
Have you ever been watching a show or a movie and thought to yourself “Wow that's crazy, that can’t be real life” and then BOOM you are in that exact movie and it is real life! There are no exact words to express the emotions that flew through my body when I received that “Darius got shot” text. The panic that took over me when nobody answered my calls. The literal heartbreak when the call came in, “he’s gone”. At that moment all I could do was think about my child and “what am I going to tell my baby”. There is no book, no show, no conversation, there is absolutely nothing that prepares you for such a life-changing moment….absolutely nothing!
As an unknowing high functioning depressed person for most of my life, this tragic shift that just occurred took me under and I was unable to hide it any longer. That conclusion did not come overnight. There have been many stupid decisions, projecting my anger, hiding my pain, and most importantly a ton of denial. Everyone is watching you to see how you handle the pressure and as your world is crumbling you feel the overbearing need to keep it together, stay strong, and suffer in silence. You want to talk to somebody, but who?.....
In Loving Memory of
DARIUS MATTHEW EDWARDS
A FATHER, SON, UNCLE & FRIEND